"Can't pay the rent if you ain't got the dough."
That was a line in a camp song we used to sing at Wabansi. I hate that song right now.
It hasn’t been a particularly hard day. More like an uneventful one. Christopher & Banks offered me a job. It's a store at the neighboring mall; they sell clothing to women 40+ that makes them look even older. I took it knowing that I can’t bank on the REI job until I know if I get a second interview or not, and rent’s due on Wednesday. I start tomorrow.
School hasn't gotten much better. The students still feel foreign to me. In a way, I kind of feel like Alice falling into Wonderland. The White Rabbit is education, it led me down and not up, and now I’m meeting a bunch of confusing people who hold me to a social code I do not understand. Still trying to figure out who the Red Queen is.
I sound like a brat, I know. But I’ve been making a genuine effort to get to know people. I’ve gone to all the events, talked to people, made my door open. I’ve made friends with my neighbors Rick, Dougal, and John…John has kind of become my Paul that I prayed for in my first entry. He said, “I think we’re friends so I can make sure you don’t get kicked out.” Safe bet. I can vent to him all I want and he knows it’s just hot air. Generally speaking, I’m all bark and no bite. Generally why I like satire so much.
It’s not the same though; it’s great to have a big brother now, but I need female friends. My roommates were supposed to be that, but they’re never home. I started becoming friends with a woman named Janine, but we're still trying to find common ground. We're in different stages, and I'm not quite comfortable being completely open yet.
God, you gave me a Paul, now give me an Elizabeth. Someone I have commonality with, and can confide in. In no way am I attempting to equate myself with Mary, but their bond was unmistakable. I need that sort of friendship right now.
Or at least someone who laughs at my jokes.
That was a line in a camp song we used to sing at Wabansi. I hate that song right now.
It hasn’t been a particularly hard day. More like an uneventful one. Christopher & Banks offered me a job. It's a store at the neighboring mall; they sell clothing to women 40+ that makes them look even older. I took it knowing that I can’t bank on the REI job until I know if I get a second interview or not, and rent’s due on Wednesday. I start tomorrow.
School hasn't gotten much better. The students still feel foreign to me. In a way, I kind of feel like Alice falling into Wonderland. The White Rabbit is education, it led me down and not up, and now I’m meeting a bunch of confusing people who hold me to a social code I do not understand. Still trying to figure out who the Red Queen is.
I sound like a brat, I know. But I’ve been making a genuine effort to get to know people. I’ve gone to all the events, talked to people, made my door open. I’ve made friends with my neighbors Rick, Dougal, and John…John has kind of become my Paul that I prayed for in my first entry. He said, “I think we’re friends so I can make sure you don’t get kicked out.” Safe bet. I can vent to him all I want and he knows it’s just hot air. Generally speaking, I’m all bark and no bite. Generally why I like satire so much.
It’s not the same though; it’s great to have a big brother now, but I need female friends. My roommates were supposed to be that, but they’re never home. I started becoming friends with a woman named Janine, but we're still trying to find common ground. We're in different stages, and I'm not quite comfortable being completely open yet.
God, you gave me a Paul, now give me an Elizabeth. Someone I have commonality with, and can confide in. In no way am I attempting to equate myself with Mary, but their bond was unmistakable. I need that sort of friendship right now.
Or at least someone who laughs at my jokes.
Where Do I See God At Work?
In my attitude. It certainly needs a tune-up.
What Do I Hear God Saying?
"Be open. Give grace."
Where Do I see God moving?
In my friendships with John and Janine. I've gained more insight from them than anyone here, so far.
